There are so many things I want to say,

but I need the time to articulate it better. 🕊

When my friend John died there was a shift that occurred, everyone in my circle started asking me questions about the afterlife.

Prior to his death they probably looked at me like I was a loser; never drinking at parties, not caring about money, substituting my curse words, abstaining from sex; always going against the stream of a degenerative culture while simultaneously never judging a soul.

Unexpected death hits different. It can catch an entire community so off guard that it literally changes its moral compass forever.

I’m gonna be honest, this whole situation with Israel was not on my illuminati bingo card, not yet anyway. I for sure thought a Ukraine counter strike on American soil was gonna happen first, Shoot, I thought China would bankrupt the USD before I foresaw this kind of craziness in the Middle East again. It’s George W. Bush 2.0 vibes.

I feel like people are seeking answers to things, and there’s no one there to really lead them. The world is filled with influences who care more about profiting from negative reactions, and New Age gurus who may have good hearts, but they are leading people down a rabbit hole of more confusion.

I’m not the same person I was during those years of baptizing my friends in the Holy Ghost and feeding the homeless. I mean, hopefully nobody is the same person they were as a teenager; but I definitely lost my spiritual fervor, more and more I lose hope in humanity.

I mean I tried everything to wake people up, and grew so tiresome of fighting that I lowered my moral standard by degrading myself in ways that if my 19 year old self saw my 28 year old self, he would have beat the crap out of him for being a Mc’ Douche.

I don’t really know what I’m supposed to do?.. But I know that I should do something.. I know that people are receptive to an extent and watching, but would they be receptive to basic Biblical truths? Would they really change their hearts if someone was to take the lead and sacrifice themselves as an example of moral virtue? Or would I be a fool only wasting my breath?