I wrote this while sexually frustrated, please disregard it all lol.
Saving for my own reflection purposes, realized I have a complex, and interpret everything as rejection.
I can't think straight when I don't have sex.
I've been shamed and demonized in past relationships for being hyper sexual.
I've been shamed for putting too much emphases on sex, which lead to fighting.
So, I can't help but to feel rejected when I don't get pursued by my lover.
Having a past history of being misunderstood with no support system; having a different set of values than many, and being labeled crazy for those values, I can't risk allowing myself to be placed in stressful environments.
I don't assume my lover would lie about health problems, but health problems also stem from a state of mind.
Even if one is not in-tune with themselves, body language, and little things being said lead me to believe it’s a resentment issue going on.
I fear to express myself because I don't want to cause a fight. Sometimes, my lover snaps at me when I try to talk about my feelings.
I feel uncomfortable and alone. I don't want cuddles or hugs when I feel rejected sexually, it makes me feel like my lover and I are just friends.
It makes me also feel like she’s trying to push me away on purpose.
She said our date today was great; but I’ve gone on nice dinner dates with lovers in the past, only for them to breakup with me, or confess cheating on me out of the blue.
I put on this facade that I can trust women, and that everything is not about money, but I’m kinda turning cold again.
The American way of life has turned me into a diseased rat, I can’t trust anyone, or believe anything anyone says. Every aspect of my life has been silenced for so long, everything has been backwards for too long. I just just want Russia to gut this country already!
https://www.danielbrummitt.com/
Although true, funding/ propagating war w/ tax dollars, is equally unethical as baby killing.
All sides lie. @conservativebabes - This is a message to the #WomensMarch: If your sex life is none of my business, then I shouldn't have to pay for it. There is no such thing as a "free" government benefit; someone will always have to fit the bill. My tax payer dollars shouldn't go toward paying for your birth control OR even worse, your abortion.